I need those words especially today. I’ve read in several grief books that I will experience waves of emotions. Today, it was wave after wave, each one different. A wave of sadness, a wave of joyful reflection, a wave of anger (cell phone companies, urr!), and back to sadness again. I tell myself, it’s gonna be alright, and I picture my sweet niece giggling and smiling.
Oh to be six years old and so excited about the simplicities of life…dressing up fancy and eating steak for dinner, making her aunt dress up in a red sparkle dress, complete with a hot pink bow and red polish on fingers and nails (yes, fingers too!), and going to see the Cabbage Patch land and coming home with a stuffed animal cat instead. On the way home after our little excursion, Haley told me she was gonna lose her voice from telling her mom all about our time together.
She sees the best in life and in her own way she reminds me that it is gonna be alright. Most days it is hard to believe that. Right now, it’s even hard to type those words, tears streaming down my face.
God, on days I struggle to see it, please remind me that it’s gonna be alright.